perpindahan

oleh kerana post saya dah mencecah 200

which i think includes the unpublished posts

saya buat tumblr !!!

seronok berlayar sampai lupa daratan

jangan begitu

takut-takut kalau kau dipaksa balik ke daratan

kau tak tahan dengan kekerasan tanah

buruk padahnya.

bukan tipuware, tupperware.

orang lain sebenarnya tak paham kita

kita pun sebenarnya tak paham orang lain

jarang kita jumpa orang yang memahami

juga jarang sekali kita memahami orang

kalau kita tak cuba paham orang lain

bagaimana pula orang lain nak cuba paham kita?

jadi kalau nak difahami, bukalah ruang

jika tak mahu, jangan buka sedikit pun

tutup rapat-rapat

serapat tupperware, bukan tipuware

seribu pun tak akan cukup, kalau bukan itu yang dicari.

"Are you religious?"

so i was waiting for the 22 illini

(the only bus route that pass by my house)

and then there's 2 men - all dressed up, wearing white shirts and black pants

they wore name tags some more!

one man greet me and the other one kept walking.

man: hi! good evening.

me: oh hello! evening to you too.

man: how are you?

i replied, just to be polite.then he asked me what i'm majoring at, and etc.

banyak pulak mamat ni nak borak.

me: ohh, so do you go to the U of I?

man: me? ohh no, i'm a missionary. i'm just taking a break from school. well in fact i just got back from that building. do you ever go there? well you can come if you want to, it's the church of jesus christ. just hang out and ask questions...bla bla bla

me: *smiling all along and nodding my head* yeah, sure. (dont know if he can sense the sarcasm)

man: are you religious?

me: uhuh, you can see by the scarves on my head. *grinning* (because the question sounds so obvious)

man: so what are you?

me: i'm a muslim.

man: ohh you're a muslim. do you go there? *pointing to the mosque*

me: *nodding my head* uhuh. that's when i pass by your church.

man: you know what? i'd always wanted to see how muslims do their services.

me: you can always come there. (pakai bantai je cakap)

man: ohh really? so what time do muslims usually do their services?

me: well it depends on the sunrise and sunset times. it's now around like 6 am in the morning, or like 1pm or 4pm or after sunset like 6pm. bla...bla..bla.

i think because it seems like i was taking over the conversation

instead of him being able to tell me something about his religion,

he then ended it and walked away.

ya muqallibal qulub, tsabbit qalbi 'ala dinik

wahai Tuhan yang membolak-balikkan hati, tetapkanlah hatiku pada deen ini

color codes

i assign colors to my courses

even though there are only four of them

yellow for english

blue for maths

green for insurance

grey for finance

my notes and my folders are color coded too

maybe because it makes my life simpler

feels like everything is sorted out

but the truth is the other way around.

i feel bad

and

i wanna cry

T_T